Here's my personal blog, it contains my personal views and my personal feelings, if you don't like what I have to say, I suggest you hit alt-f4 because my blog doesn't like your face either.
5 days of being near you but not being next to you is going to be hard.
Really hard.
But I'll try.
Friday, January 21, 2011,7:20 PM |
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Sometimes when I drive, I feel like just losing control. I feel like crashing into a divider. I feel worthless.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011,12:09 AM |
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I wanna watch No Strings Attached and Sucker Punch and Waiting For Forever and Your Highness (James Franco need I say more)
Saturday, January 15, 2011,9:12 PM |
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I guess I could say I'm used to it.
Wanting what I can't have.
I just wish that I could brush this off like the other things that I have wanted but couldn't have.
Not think about it,
get over it and get on with life.
But this is different,
I've never wanted anything this bad,
and brushing this off, not thinking about it, getting over it
seems like the hardest thing to do right now.
I wish I never set foot on that island with you.
Then none of this would have happened.
Then I wouldn't have to ponder and think about things you used to say or do.
Then things wouldn't remind me of you.
Then I wouldn't look at each and every couple and think otherwise.
Then I wouldn't have to go through this much pain.
But then again, we can't always have what we ask for.
That's the way life is.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011,12:03 PM |
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There were so many things I wanted to tell you, that i never got around to. Sometimes they make their way into my conscious mind, and it makes me sad. I never got a chance to tell you, and i never will.
And even though now there are things going on that I wish I could tell you about.
But I'll never get to tell you those, either.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011,8:59 PM |
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You have no control over me, what are you trying to prove?!
Sunday, January 9, 2011,4:22 PM |
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being awaken at 12 am to 6 awesome people at my doorstep with a cake.
being given an awesome deathly hallows card
getting home made oreo cheesecake with the term besai on it
walking under starry lights with a cool breeze blowing and a live band playing
having that live band sing you a birthday song
gifts gifts and cuppy cakes
having friends brainstorm what crazy things to do on your special day
20th birthday moments I'll cherish for life
Friday, January 7, 2011,6:35 PM |
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1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
If this was the last day, then I would have gone without having achieved a lot that I have set out to achieve, so my life would not be complete.
2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?
I used to be loud and obnoxious, but I am the complete opposite of who I used to be, because who I am now would never have liked who I was before.
3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be there?
I have been spending a lot of time with family and friends. That was pretty much how I saw myself a few years ago.
4. What do you think it means to be in love?
Being in love would mean that you would give up literally anything you have your hands on just to be with that person you love.
5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week and explain.
Please don't go- Barcelona
6. Talk about a recent experience that has effected you greatly and how.
On the second day into the new year, I was told something I was dreading to hear, this has changed me. It changed my perspective of things. I don't know if I'll ever be the same or if I'll ever go back to how I was before him. But it broke me, and its going to take time to make me feel complete again.
7. Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?
I think I would be devastated if I lost my sister.
8. Write about the first moment that comes to your head when you read the words “childhood memory”
Running around like wild barbarians with the neighbours kids. Making fire from leaves and boiling water over them.
9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Having a steady job, relationship and everything I could possibly want.
10. Did you have a good day or a bad day? Where do you think that defining line was?
I had a stressful day I guess
11. Do you feel protective over someone?
Yes, I do.
12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?
Anyone happy as of now. I just want to be happy.
13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?
Successful, married, with kids, so I can be a god ma
14. When you are stressed, what can you use as an outlet? Why do you think it helps you?
Dance.
15. What do you believe in? And not just God or atheism.
Fate. Karma.
16. What are you passionate about?
Dance. Music. Fashion
17. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?
They're who they are.
19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?
Italy, the countryside. Because its beautiful
20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.
Breakeven- The Script
21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?
I wanted to see what my answers would be.
22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.
They probably think I'm too proud because of how I look when I don't smile.
23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.
Trying harder in school. Work hard. Play hard.
24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?
Independent, I get too caught up when there's too many people around.
25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?
Being there for them in times of need. Telling them I love them every chance I get. Being strict when there is need.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011,12:45 PM |
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hi, I'm Jess, 20, temperamental, short-sighted, relates to indie, owns a cat and dog, has freakishly small fingers but plays the piano.